hope

Losing and finding hope

Recently I feel I have lost the sense of leading my own life. It feels more like life has been leading me. I have been feeling weighed down by the weight of it all: what a gigantic task it is to try to influence the world even a little bit; how hard it is to sort out my emotions enough so they don’t end up pushing me into the rabbit hole of running away from it all (playing Diablo III,… Read More »Losing and finding hope

Building blocks

I’ve been experiencing the cliche of running into ‘reality’ as I get older. When I was 20 or so, it was much easier to have big dreams for the world. I had ideas for what society should be like and what civilization would look like if it were improved. The question of doing it was always a given, meaning, it was obvious to me that it was possible and that I was going to do it. I could build a… Read More »Building blocks